H was in town this weekend....meanwhile AP and I had made plans. It was very strange to go from H's arms to AP. I don't remember how I was ever able to compartmentalize that. Maybe the fact that AP and I were meeting for lunch / a few hours made it all seem very real (usually we meet in the evening.) Also, the bar was not open where we met...so all of it happened while I was completely sober. AP doesn't seem to need a drink or two or three (lol) to make it feel ok but I do!
Lunch was nice...AP started to open up about his boy. He had had a few panic attacks over the weekend. At first AP said that his son was upset and having problems. I told him that I had serious anxiety problems when I was a kid...that's when his face lit up and he said that's exactly what's going on with his son. I felt so bad for his boy who was misunderstood by everyone it seemed. He was so thankful for my insight. Meanwhile his son called and AP was so sweet with him. Melted my heart!
I was very sober...it was very bright and I just felt a little more inhibited than usual. Of course IC was amazing....and we snuggled afterwards. AP ordered The Descendants....and suddenly everything became even more sobering and sad. I'm sure most of you know by now it's about a man who's wife barely holding onto life when he finds out she had a serious A. Ugh. It was awkward. I could hardly breathe through some scenes. I asked AP if he knew what this movie was about...he said "no, i just knew it was sad"
I said I had to go...mid-movie. Does anyone know how that one ended?
